people seem to like the pictures of my crazy dog that i post.
pictures of Lydia always seem to get atleast 1-2 favorite right after i post them.

maybe i should give up taking pictures of other things, and only take pictures of her.

lol.

im going to post a pictures of Lyds and i in a second

i just posted two pictures. one went to scraps, i dont know which one i like better. although i like neither. both say the same thing, just look different...

if my camera will work
ill be posting pictures.


o.o



*insert pointless journal here*

things have been really fucked up lately, ive been meaning to post more shit, but i just havent...
things have been going bad, Fuzzy had to be put down about 2 weeks ago(12/8/2007), i lost Dude is a stupid fucking barn fire(11/27/2007), my aunt died, and ive lost my best fucking friend. i dont know why the fuck he hates me. but he does. and it fucking sucks :'[ i want my fucking friend back.

fuck...

ill post some shit over this vacation, but 12/26-1/1(1/2?) im going to be at my friends dads house. hopefully ill have pictures of my pony.
getting a new camera for christmas. so thats cool?

this all just fucking sucks...
i miss my Bubba Boy
i miss my Dudelberry
i miss my best friend. i thought people who cared are suppose to be there when you need them? apparently not, because the last two weeks, all ive needed was a simple hug from him, and apparently im dead. i mean, i know he fucking lead me on, again. for the like, 3rd or 4th time, but what the fuck... weve been friends since 9th grade, why does he get to hate me when i didnt do anything wrong. i should hate him, and i dont. and yeah, his whole saying "i dont do friends with ex's" what a big fucking lie. weve been friends for 2 1/2 years. we dated 10 months of it, weve been exs for 1 year or it. and we were still friend, but every fucking time you get a girlfriend, im fucking dead to you. and once you break up? if its anything like the last couple times, youll be my friend again. so why not just be my friend even when you have a girlfriend? you were my friend first...
dear friend(?): i miss you like fuck. please talk to me. i need you. i miss you. i love you. your my best fucking friend. ever. you know more about me than anyone else. please, im not dead. im fine with your problems. it doesnt bother me that you lead me on. i just want to be friends. ill always be here when you need/want a friend/me.






"whats wrong?"
"oh, what? um, nothing."
"your lying"
"?"
"you have that blank stare again"




"i don't know about you but i've always been able to see us growing up together, happily on some god forsaken ranch house in the middle of fucking nowhere you forced me into -with an internet connection, of course- and the sun coming up every day and all that good stuff you might not think i'm suited to your lifestyle but i'm good at fixing things i'm far stronger than i look"
"yesyes<3 xD you can help me clean shit!"
"we'll have to hammer out the *ahem* finer details "
"hahaha. a farm with 5 dogs, 3 cats, 20 alpacas, 10 horses, 1 donkey and 2 llamas. yes<3"
"lol"
"^.^"

i gotta go, so ill finish uploading pictures hopefully tomorrow...?
dunno cuz im going to see Kel(possible new puppy) so shes going to be taking most of my time tomorrow.
and yeah. i dont think i uploaded all my pictures from one of the concerts... so imma haveta re upload them x_x;;

take care all